…I do not dream.
I have never dreamed. If I did so as a young boy, I no longer hold those memories anywhere in my mind.
Even when I was still like the others, trapped between the chains of the dusk and dawn, I did not sleep. I prowled. I wandered. I tormented and tortured. I stalked. I fed the pleasures of my flesh. I starved the want of my soul. Because it was my destiny, it was my right, it was my heritage.. or at least, that is what I had been taught.
During those long, dull hours, just after the sun touched the sky and before the howling packs were set free after twilight, I roamed the castle halls.. In search of.. I had no idea what.. I did not hunger.. for food, anyway… I did not need sexual gratification, but I would take it if the thought plucked my mind.. most of all, I did not sleep. My handlers, Mother and Father, ensured that I was always always ALWAYS at my prime. In peak physical and mental condition at all times. When I was a boy, a lashing for every time my eyelids fluttered close. They watched watched WATCHED me constantly. Looking for any flaw or any reason to punish me. Training. That’s what they called it. For what glory is to come. When the dark ones return. But it was just relentless torment of a child who become a monster. A monster who needed to feed on… whatever his wicked heart desired.. until. That night.
The moment she burst through the doors, running from some unknown creature of the night… I sensed her… I smelled her… I craved her… I knew she belonged to me. It was a rush more intense than anything I had every experienced. It was the most perfect moment I had ever felt. The pull of destiny.
She fought. She fled. She didn’t back down from the strength of my former… companion… There was no fear in her. Even with death’s blade barreling down upon her, she was already a true queen, ready to face the end with eyes open, a brave heart, and a steady hand.
I do not sleep.
Yet, here I am. In a dream. Shay’s dream.
The feeling is uncomfortable. Surreal. Not being in control. I am always in control. Except that is no longer true.
My will is no longer my own. It is hers. To protect her. To watch over her. To follow wherever she leads. I am hers, more than she is mine. Is this what the ancients called, Love?
I have no time to contemplate this question. We are not alone.
Though all is ink dark on every side, I know they are there. I can see them; even though they are the unseeable ones. No mortal may lay eyes upon them. But I am no mortal. I never have been. I am something new. I am what they had hoped to spawn. For untold eons, my arrival was foretold. Yet, I am not what they had expected. I am a disappointment. I can sense their anger… and fear. My potential has been wasted. My purity tainted. Because of… her. They loathe… and fear… her for what she has done to me. She has turned my vision away from them and on to something more. Something outside of their control and influence. My eyes are looking at the dawn, but not their dawn. Hers. And those like her.
I am five steps behind her. She does not know I am here. But she does sense their presence.
They circle. They plot. They watch for a moment of attack. But they cannot.
She is more powerful than they had anticipated. They come so near, only to have to retreat. She… or something else… is blocking their path.
And then. Then it arrives. Descending like a raging storm. They all shriek and fall back. They know not to interfere. They have done their best, it will do the rest. It will end her.
On instinct, I react. My heartrate accelerates. I feel my pupils dialate. My body begins its change. The change that was once the harbinger of doom for all that lay unfortuneately in my sphere. But I am no longer confident. Is this transformation to harm? Or to help? But harm who? Help who? The answer is no longer clear. I am no longer their servant, so is my change to fight it? Or assist its deadly rampage, about to break a terrible wave upon Shay?
I would never harm her. Never.
I will myself to choose. Choose now. Choose who I will serve. Choose who I will… Love.
I chose her over all else before. I can…I will… do so now.
I will fight. I will die, if need be, for her.
The air turns dark… much darker than before. An electric rage swirls around us.
It is closing in. She stops moving, and so do I. We do all things in sync. It is an instinct we have now, undeniable, and unchanging.
I move my arms forward. I am trying to grab her. Pull her back, behind me. Although I know we are strongest when we fight together. It is my own instinct to want to protect her, to take on the hardest hit from this storm first.
But I cannot reach her. She is only five steps in front of me, but in this nightscape it may as well be five hundred.
The atmosphere charges to its highest peak. Our thoughts are one. She is not ready. She cannot stand against this enemy. Perhaps later. But not now…. I can. Because I was spawned from the will of this creature. But I cannot position myself to save her.
My heart syncs. My muscles tighten. My nails dig deep into the palms of my fists. I feel my teeth grinding down hard.
I cannot save her. And this is the first time, ever in my life, when I am afraid.
The world around us goes motionless, soundless.
A grey dawn descends.
Shay and I are whipped from the nightmare.
Remember these things.
The message is for her. I think. I am not sure. Are they speaking to me also?
My eyes blink open. Dusk is rapidly descending. The monsters will be on the move soon.
And then I think… Where are the children?
From By Moonlight : An Apocalyptic Fairytale by Lenise Lee
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