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If time is the distraction, then the moment is not the joy.
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Sometimes distractions serve the purpose of calling our attention back to details we overlooked the first time.
Love all, trust a few. Do wrong to none.
The moment when I realize writing makes me happier than anything else in the world..even chocolate ~lenise
A new thought that is an old thought unforgotten not held back not pushed down Lifted up Ascended . . . . Q. Lenise Lee
To live
to be alive
to thrive
That is
me
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I summon the power of Self awareness ability awakening the power of the All . .. . . Q. Lenise Lee
. . .. . I want to rest but my mind doesn't cease probing the known universe Awake and in sleep always searching Seeking the portal to the unseen, unknown cosmos of the All The words echo Don't explain just do Follow your will to the beginning of something new Stop living in the moment after Live and be in the moment that is right now Looking for clues Asking for understanding fulfillment peace in my mind So I write until the world first breaks then expands then opens Freeing me Revealing the ultimate truth I am the narrator This is all my creation . .. . . Q. Lenise Lee
to have this love that no one can accept this light and no one to receive it this open heart where no one may dwell . . . . Q. Lenise Lee
From the Mind Journal of Shaylise Stafford
There is light a flash engulfing darkness overwhelming stillness absolute silent Time is frozen. I am frozen. Or do I exist anymore at all? I do not know All I have is this thought I am I am here somewhere nowhere everywhere or Am I the thought that someone else is having? You are You are there and so am I A pop a flash then there is light blank soft light Everyone is gone but I am not alone. . . . . . from By Moonlight: A Post Apocalyptic Fairy Tale by Q. Lenise Lee. Copyright 2021. All Rights Reserved.
By Moonlight 4.1c
Ethan knew that mercy was not in their spirits and, if he were ever captured by them again, they would keep him alive to bleed him out slowly, one cut at a time… over decades, centuries eons, if necessary… whatever would make him suffer the most, until his very last breath. And then they would call him back to life, and do it all over again.
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From below, Ethaniel and Shalise watched as the high blue sky disappeared behind the descending chaos. Dakken hovered nearby, a silent shadow beneath the long barren branches of the ancient elm tree. The children sat in the dust near a dilapidated car, rusted nearly to only strip metal and bolts. They held hands and kept their eyes closed tight, as if in deep prayer and meditation.
A reckoning was upon them all. Elder gods do not die, they are only reborn darker and more powerful.
Ethan and Shay moved closer and pressed their shoulders together. The pale skin of Ethan’s broad shoulder pushed into the warm flesh of Shay’s slim brown one. On instinct, they touched hands and held tight to each other. Electrified chaos began gathering all around them. But they had defeated the dark once before. Together . As one force, united. And they could do it again.
I don't think I have ever wanted to cry, for this country, before today How low, so low, we have sank, further, beneath the waves The question is not, How did we get here. We have been here, for quite some time, maybe since the beginning. The question is, How do we do better?
I called out to the universe. . And the universe spoke back. . In that moment. For the first time. I heard my own voice. . Self said to self. Welcome. To who you are. And who you will be. . . . Q.
I was alone, so I whispered to the wind. And it became a breeze that traveled to distant shores blanketing the trees, with dew from my tears a vast forest grew That burst forth with fresh flowers, whose petals circled the earth. Before landing on my windowsill, with a simple note. XoXo. To Q. From you. . . . . Q.
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Questions unpacking my mind.
Finding the way out.
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Add to Tips jarAdd to Tips jarAdd to Tips jarI want
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something
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than what the barriers, of this world
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Add to Tips jarAdd to Tips jarAdd to Tips jarSo I write, to the universe. I write, to creation. I write, to the Author, of All Things. For an answer. For a cure. To what ails, the heart. What, sickens the soul. Knowing, I am, the answer. I am, the cure. For what, binds me. I write. Until, I can breathe. I write. Until, my thoughts, unlock. I write. And write.. and write. Until, I am, me. Again.
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Add to Tips jarAdd to Tips jarAdd to Tips jar.But I use my pain, to create energy. And that energy, makes magic. And that magic, fills the world, with wonder. And that wonder, ignites Light. And that Light, lifts souls. Out, of darkness.
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Add to Tips jarAdd to Tips jarAdd to Tips jarI’m a love story kinda girl. I love stories. About defying odds. Saving the day. Rising to the occasion. Moving mountains. Hurtling barriers. I love stories. About Lovers in sync. Destinies intertwined. Stars aligned. Lips locked. Hearts pounding. I love stories. Where I am. The narrator of my life. Living out every possibility.
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Add to Tips jarAdd to Tips jarAdd to Tips jarLet me accept the power of who I am
the energy that flows through my bones
the strength and resilience of my spirit
the hope and determination that beat hard in my chest
Let me live every moment, and love every moment that I live.
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My energy is.
My energy becomes.
My energy will be,
the movement that stirs the destiny of the world
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Lost in dreams,
I dare not, awaken
lest I forgot, the memory,
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Hints of warmth, tease souls
Dreams float, on daises
Summer vibes, reborn
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I keep,
waiting, for
the answer,
but,
I already
have,
the answer
Instead,
I keep,
waiting, for
something,
to point
me,
toward, touching,
the answer,
And then,
I saw,
a blank sheet,
before
me
There was, no veil,
there was never, a veil,
Only, a blank,
a very blank,
canvas,
waiting,
wanting,
expecting,
demanding,
pleading,
hoping,
to be,
filled.
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by,
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dreams,
of my,
choosing.
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creation is, a blank canvas
my mind is, the brush
I must paint.
To see, the patterns
In all, things,
Every, where
To understand, them
To be wise, with them
To find, the way, through them
To see, the Mysteries
To fear, Myself, no more.
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My third eye opens to a fourth, dimensions unfold and expand
I must not allow, these things
to infiltrate, my heart
disrupt, my mind
distract, the movement, of my spirit
All things pass, expect, those which are
Right and true.
I choose now
which I stand, in the midst of
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From the Mind Journal of Ethaniel, Crown Prince of Shadows
…I do not dream.
I have never dreamed. If I did so as a young boy, I no longer hold those memories anywhere in my mind.
Even when I was still like the others, trapped between the chains of the dusk and dawn, I did not sleep. I prowled. I wandered. I tormented and tortured. I stalked. I fed the pleasures of my flesh. I starved the want of my soul. Because it was my destiny, it was my right, it was my heritage.. or at least, that is what I had been taught.
During those long, dull hours, just after the sun touched the sky and before the howling packs were set free after twilight, I roamed the castle halls.. In search of.. I had no idea what.. I did not hunger.. for food, anyway… I did not need sexual gratification, but I would take it if the thought plucked my mind.. most of all, I did not sleep. My handlers, Mother and Father, ensured that I was always always ALWAYS at my prime. In peak physical and mental condition at all times. When I was a boy, a lashing for every time my eyelids fluttered close. They watched watched WATCHED me constantly. Looking for any flaw or any reason to punish me. Training. That’s what they called it. For what glory is to come. When the dark ones return. But it was just relentless torment of a child who become a monster. A monster who needed to feed on… whatever his wicked heart desired.. until. That night.
The moment she burst through the doors, running from some unknown creature of the night… I sensed her… I smelled her… I craved her… I knew she belonged to me. It was a rush more intense than anything I had every experienced. It was the most perfect moment I had ever felt. The pull of destiny.
She fought. She fled. She didn’t back down from the strength of my former… companion… There was no fear in her. Even with death’s blade barreling down upon her, she was already a true queen, ready to face the end with eyes open, a brave heart, and a steady hand.
Shay.
I do not sleep.
Yet, here I am. In a dream. Shay’s dream.
The feeling is uncomfortable. Surreal. Not being in control. I am always in control. Except that is no longer true.
My will is no longer my own. It is hers. To protect her. To watch over her. To follow wherever she leads. I am hers, more than she is mine. Is this what the ancients called, Love?
I have no time to contemplate this question. We are not alone.
Though all is ink dark on every side, I know they are there. I can see them; even though they are the unseeable ones. No mortal may lay eyes upon them. But I am no mortal. I never have been. I am something new. I am what they had hoped to spawn. For untold eons, my arrival was foretold. Yet, I am not what they had expected. I am a disappointment. I can sense their anger… and fear. My potential has been wasted. My purity tainted. Because of… her. They loathe… and fear… her for what she has done to me. She has turned my vision away from them and on to something more. Something outside of their control and influence. My eyes are looking at the dawn, but not their dawn. Hers. And those like her.
I am five steps behind her. She does not know I am here. But she does sense their presence.
They circle. They plot. They watch for a moment of attack. But they cannot.
She is more powerful than they had anticipated. They come so near, only to have to retreat. She… or something else… is blocking their path.
And then. Then it arrives. Descending like a raging storm. They all shriek and fall back. They know not to interfere. They have done their best, it will do the rest. It will end her.
On instinct, I react. My heartrate accelerates. I feel my pupils dialate. My body begins its change. The change that was once the harbinger of doom for all that lay unfortuneately in my sphere. But I am no longer confident. Is this transformation to harm? Or to help? But harm who? Help who? The answer is no longer clear. I am no longer their servant, so is my change to fight it? Or assist its deadly rampage, about to break a terrible wave upon Shay?
I would never harm her. Never.
I will myself to choose. Choose now. Choose who I will serve. Choose who I will… Love.
I chose her over all else before. I can…I will… do so now.
I will fight. I will die, if need be, for her.
The air turns dark… much darker than before. An electric rage swirls around us.
It is closing in. She stops moving, and so do I. We do all things in sync. It is an instinct we have now, undeniable, and unchanging.
I move my arms forward. I am trying to grab her. Pull her back, behind me. Although I know we are strongest when we fight together. It is my own instinct to want to protect her, to take on the hardest hit from this storm first.
But I cannot reach her. She is only five steps in front of me, but in this nightscape it may as well be five hundred.
The atmosphere charges to its highest peak. Our thoughts are one. She is not ready. She cannot stand against this enemy. Perhaps later. But not now…. I can. Because I was spawned from the will of this creature. But I cannot position myself to save her.
My heart syncs. My muscles tighten. My nails dig deep into the palms of my fists. I feel my teeth grinding down hard.
I cannot save her. And this is the first time, ever in my life, when I am afraid.
And then.
The world around us goes motionless, soundless.
A grey dawn descends.
Shay and I are whipped from the nightmare.
Remember these things.
The message is for her. I think. I am not sure. Are they speaking to me also?
My eyes blink open. Dusk is rapidly descending. The monsters will be on the move soon.
And then I think… Where are the children?
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From By Moonlight : An Apocalyptic Fairytale by Lenise Lee
Copyright Lenise Lee Pubn, All Rights Reserved.
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I am, trying, to be, poetic. Which only, makes this, harder. To let time, slip by. But, it never does, really. Instead, now, more than ever, I am, wandering, away, with my thoughts. Circling. For there are, no more, corners to turn, nor, places to be, and, be unseen. We are, all where we are, and, nothing more. Somehow, is this, a herding, ultimate dulling, of the masses, of the mind, of the will. For when, we willingly, become prisoners, no escape, is possible, and, no bars, necessary. What, oh, what, are we, truly, becoming.
Standing in the delicious chill, early morning fleeing elsewhere Grey dawn overhead, hot mug in hand Birds worshipping the new day, squirrels restless with play Awake, awaken, awakening, I am. . . . . Q
borrowed and blue
fleeting and fickle
anxious and amazing
wandering and wanting
exciting and ethereal
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…I am being watched.
I can feel their presence, just out of view. The corner of my eye catches movement.
I had not dreamed in many years. Not since I was a young child. Not until that night.
The night when everything changed. The night when Ethan stole me away from my life. The night when I realized that I was so much more than an unknown, barely surviving server in some gawd-awful bar.
This is a dream. I have had so many times since then. I almost have it memorized.
I am being watched….
From somewhere in the darkness, they are there.
This is a dream, I reassure myself. But I know, at the core of all that I am. This is not a dream. This is as real as any other moment in my waking life.
I am wandering through an ocean of dark oblivion on all sides. Yet, I am not alone.
They watch. They study. The observe and take note. Some dare to come too close. And that is when I sense them.
I am not supposed to know that they are there. But I do. My bones stiffen. My muscles tense. My mind’s awareness goes razor sharp. I am aware of all things, everything, even them, all at once.
Somehow, I can see them also. Flickers of shadows only. But they are definitely within my visual perception. And they are the unseeable ones, this I know on instinct. They are never meant to be observed by mortals; their presence is only to be a mere passing thought. A shudder, a chill. A superstition to be shushed and shamed. Never spoken of aloud, only by children, who have not yet learned the closed-mindedness of the adult world.
But I am no mortal. I never had been. Neither am I like them. This worries them the most, I can tell. I am something new. Something they had not expected. At least, not so soon.
It was Ethan who activated this dormant gene within me. It was his sudden appearance in and disruption of my world that forced to me to become what I had always doubted and denied. To become my truest self. The self within the self. The highest self. Needed for a specific purpose, to win a very specific battle in an eons-long war.
His nearness. Even before we had laid eyes upon one another, we were instinctively aware and bound to each other. This is the call of fate. The pull of destiny.
In a blanket of black, I wander. Confused. But not frightened. I feel my breathing pick up pace, my eyes widen as I search deeper into the dark. Something is coming. Fast and furious. The prickle in the air is electric. And I know, as my heart sinks, I am not prepared for what approaches. It is too soon. I am not ready to face the fight coming my way.
And then, suddenly, my awareness lifts. A new presence has arrived ahead of the enemy on the dark horizon. A grey dawn quickly descends. And I am in the land of the dark no longer.
Before I am yanked from the world of dreams and nightmares, where the true veil is lifted, four thoughts are planted in my mind.
Remember these things.
My eyes flicker open. There is still some daylight left, and then the animals will be out soon, prowling the open night. Hunting season.
Then I remember them… Where are the children?
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from By Moonlight, An Apocalyptic Fairytale by Lenise Lee
Copyright 2020 Lenise Lee Publications, All Rights Reserved
Love the sound of the morning,
where peace and anticipation reign free
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These things,
must not change, who I am
nor stear me, clear of
the call of Destiny
For all things,
small and great, weak and mighty,
can become moments
of clarity
of uprising
of the true Spirit
that drives, the evolution of
my Becoming
Me.
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I was sleeping, and now I must awaken
A Queen among men
A Goddess among mortals
I will Rise again
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By Moonlight 4.1b
Children.
A sudden noise from near a broken down wooden pushcart caught there attention.
All three turned toward the sound of terrible creaks and crackling, the sound of old wood being disturbed after a long sleep.
Their instincts kicked on high, each awaiting the moment to attack whatever hid behind the dusty barrier just in front of them, less than five feet away.
Shay and Ethan touched minds, silently powering up. It was a natural instinct now, to unify their abilities as one. They would always be more powerful as one.
Drek held deathly still. His shadow long and lean, as though he were not there, merely a piece of the scenery. No words of magic were as powerful as deluding the mind into believing there was nothing there to be afraid of, never preparing itself for the attack that strike at any moment. This was his greatest strength, stealth.
And then they appeared. The children.
They stepped from behind the cart and stood in the full light of the overhanging sun, which should have been impossible. They were hand in hand, calmly composed with serene looks upon their young faces, as though the world around them were not made of ash and dust and dirt and creeping things waiting to kill all who chanced near them.
The boy, dark-skinned with thickly coiled light brown hair, was about ten years old; close to Ethan’s age when Mother and Father, his handlers, had taken him from his home, had pulled him from the arms of his dying mom, the last survivor of his real family.
The girl, fair-skinned and red-headed, was slightly younger, perhaps eight, around the same age as when Shay realized that the world she was born into was somehow not right. Though she had known no other life, she had always sensed the way things were were not how they were supposed to be, that something at some point, long before she was born, had gone terrible wrong. A twist set in motion by the Fates, if there were such beings.
For a moment, all were silent, all stared, none moved. They were like an aged portrait from some forgotten nowhere, left to dry and droop in the harsh sun.
It was the boy who spoke first. He spoke, clear and to the point, yet his thick full lips never moved. “We are alone.”
The other three knew this was not true. Though there was no other living thing to be scene at this high-day hour, except the five who stood here, there were sleepings – or hiding – beings all around them, sheltered in place til dark.
The girl was next. It was the same, her voice was perfectly pitched, but her pink mouth did not open as she said the words. “You do not need to fear us.”
Still the other three made no attempt to reply. This could easily be a trap. The Elders were not done with them. Perhaps they had rallied and returned sooner than anticipated and were not using some illusion to get Ethan and Shay – and even Drek – to let their guards down. All eyes stared, all minds remained focused.
Then, finally, it was Shay who took a chance, against Ethan’s wishes.
No, he warned her across their mental bond, don’t. They are not true children. There is no way they would be able to survive standing in full sun like that.
That is the reason why I am doing this, Shay replied, they Elders cannot do this kind of magic. Not even they are powerful enough to override the power of the sun on human skin. We thought only we could that. And since that’s not true anymore, we need to know who they are… they could be allies, Ethan. And we need as many as possible now… even Drek.
There was still hesitation in his mind, but he understood her points.
Ethan nodded toward Shay and then she turned to the children.
“Who are you?” She spoke with real words this time, so that Drek could also hear her.
The tiny pair in unison this time, aloud using their lips to release soft and flowing words that touched the ears of the other three ever so lightly as though a breeze had gently floated near them, wrapping them in both calm and unease at feeling such a quiet calm.
“We are your friends. We have come very far. We are here to help you.” They stepped forward a few more feet, flooding their faces in even more bright midday sun, nearly illuminating their beautiful and delicate features. “We must be quick to move,” they continued as one, “There are enemies on the way. And they will arrive ahead of dark, clothed in the energy of the dark storm.”
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from By Moonlight, An Apocalyptic Fairytale by Q. Lenise Lee. All Rights Reserved 2020.
Sometimes, I am a free spirit, flowing with answers, the purest lake filled with living water
I capture the essence, harness the power, imagination, creation is born,
and I know, truly know, I have become, what I am, truly.
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I want to, Create
and by creating, Live
and by living, Become
and by becoming, Find You
by finding you,
I, Find Myself
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balance and energy.
the call of the universe,
pulling us to greater heights.
the spirit of the universe,
pursuing us into our wildest dreams.
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A small moment in the vastness of all that is.
But, most assuredly, it is Glorious.
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As we learn
together,
gathering Balance
in between moments,
focusing light,
moving as one
with the Universe,
establishing the course,
Meaning unfolds
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I listen to the morning,
to the morning song
It says,
be careful, be vigilant, be aware but
Always
be bright, be amazed, be present
in the moment
Filled with love and laughter
words of encouragement
ears eager to embrace
heart of pure energy
spirit radiant and divine
movements right and true
Always
be you.
A gift, a blessing,
focused and refined
(against the creeping darkness)
Bright, piercing Light
reborn to
Shine anew.
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against the creeping darkness,
A bright, piercing light
Shines Anew.
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I am.
Reborn in the morning,
settled at eventide.
In balance.
As one,
with the Universe.
All things that were.
All things that are.
All things that will be.
I am.
Art and artist.
Creation and creator.
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I have a vision in my mind, of
Everything.
Existence.
Eternity.
Reality.
All
things in between, and
outside of
them. And then
I write
simply
carefully
BOLDLY.
I am.
I will
BE.
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